Self-Doubt is Like a Hydra

Self-doubt is like an internalized hydra – that mythological 10-headed serpentine water monster – and each head of the hydra has a different opinion.

There is self-doubt and then there is self-doubt. Self-doubt on overdrive is when making even a moderately important decision turns into a cacophony…in one’s head. One is at the mercy of conflicting thoughts.

“Cacophony” means a mixture of harsh and discordant sounds, and that about sums it up. If not this, what about that? If not that, what about the other? And if not the other, then what about this? Or that? Or none?

This kind of thinking is a bit different from what I call hamster-wheel thinking, or going round and round incessantly about a topic, but they are related. Hamster-wheel thinking is more obsessive and tracks endlessly around issues of relationship. Thought forms take on a life of their own and are hard to tame and diminish. Healers who are clairvoyant like me tend to “see” thought forms as entities, such as snakes and bugs.

The thoughts have a label on them, such as “Despair,” or “Self-Destruction.” A clairaudient may hear the label, a clairsentient feel it, a claircognizant know it.

Imagine ten thought forms that take on a life of their own, but are irretrievably interconnected. This is a hydra thought form! I was uniquely suited to discover hydras, given I had three or four of my own.

How Hydras Develop

Hydras usually develop in a person because they had a critical parent. Let’s say you secretly want to write. You want to write. But, you’ve internalized a parent who would think that is absurd. Another who will emphasize you may not be good enough, that will remind you of how bad you are at grammar, that thinks you’d be better off going into music, that tells you your problem is that you don’t know what to do with yourself. You remember how you only focused on your writing class one semester, because that is all that interested you, but you berate yourself for neglecting other classes.

Just keep adding the conflicts until you have 10 and you have a hydra! It is hard to imagine anything as successful as energy work for healing this problem.

You remove the hydra and the whole configuration of thinking patterns is gone! It’s really true. I have taken many hydras out of people, including myself, and the peace that comes is palpable.

As a healer you need to be very patient when removing hydras as you have to make sure to get all 10 heads, and they may be in different chakras. Once it is removed, send a hydra to the sun to be purified.

Diary of a Healer offers the stories of people’s lives as seen from the perspective of a clairvoyant healer who works with the energy body and its vibrant, ever-changing patterns. Each entry will be actual accounts of healing and will provide a glossary of esoteric language. Names are changed to protect people’s privacy. By Annie Bond www.divinemothercenter.com/

 Annie teaches the HeartMind Energy Healer School and gives healing in Rhinebeck, NY, New York City, and Boston. She also gives distance healings all over the world.

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