Self-Doubt is Like a Hydra

Self-doubt is like an internalized hydra – that mythological 10-headed serpentine water monster – and each head of the hydra has a different opinion.

There is self-doubt and then there is self-doubt. Self-doubt on overdrive is when making even a moderately important decision turns into a cacophony…in one’s head. One is at the mercy of conflicting thoughts.

“Cacophony” means a mixture of harsh and discordant sounds, and that about sums it up. If not this, what about that? If not that, what about the other? And if not the other, then what about this? Or that? Or none?

This kind of thinking is a bit different from what I call hamster-wheel thinking, or going round and round incessantly about a topic, but they are related. Hamster-wheel thinking is more obsessive and tracks endlessly around issues of relationship.

Craving Alcohol a Craving for Healing

 Diary of a Healer #9, by Annie Bond

“I have to have it – every day,” noted a client who wants to stop alcohol. She has a few glasses of wine every night, and while she generally doesn’t have more than that, feels dependent.

“When I start drinking I can’t stop,” noted another, a social binge drinker.

“I drank like a fish and have been sober for five years; I get addicted to everything” said another.

All three are professional women with husbands and children, and are haunted by their alcohol use.